Saturday, October 21

Cold and Flu Season...,

Sorry its taken me so long to get back to you. Our house is one big, swirling virus!! YUK!! We had ANOTHER cold run through here last week - not that it's actually left yet. Hubby came down with it last night. I hope it's done with us soon. We are worn out!!

I don't know what's going on this year - it feels like we've been about to get sick, sick, or recovering from being sick for the last 6 weeks! Usually we're a bit more resilient. Dave (that would be Hubby) is hoping that we're building our resistance to this year's bugs early and that we'll be healthy for the rest of cold and flu season. I hope he's right - because I am DONE with mucus and coughs and sad little faces, whimpering for a restful night's sleep.

Monday, October 9

I did it...,

... we did it.

Last night as I walked down the hall I heard something. It was unmistakable. I stopped to really listen and I could hear it. Feel it. A peaceful, loving quite washed over me. At that moment I was so aware of my own happiness - a sense of fullness and contentedness. A feeling that I think has been with me for a while now - but one that I rarely stop to feel, to appreciate or listen to.

My two incredible little girls were asleep in their beds, smiling, dreaming. My husband and dog were lazing on the couch watching T.V. Everyone in my house - at that moment - happy and content. I did it - we did it. Dave and I. Achieved the dream. The dream that I've had since I was just a little girl. I've always longed for a peaceful, happy and loving family. A safe and secure home free of drama and conflict. This was and is at the heart of what I've always longed for. Some people dream of great wealth and recognition and popularity. And while all that would be nice and I wouldn't turn it away, I don't think having all of that would make me happy without the very real foundation and emotional security of my home and family.

We may not have a great deal of money but I feel rich.


In the car -- on the freeway, early one morning on our way to IRC preschool.

"What is it Alex?"
"I don't see any police. Do you see any police?"
"That means we can go FAST!!"
(OH Lord. What am I teaching my children?)

At the dinner table.

"Mommy, close your eyes."
"OK, Alex. They're closed."
And she pokes me in the eye.
"OUCH! Alex what did you do that for? That hurt honey. You shouldn't poke people in the eye. It hurts."
"But I didn't poke you in the other eye!"